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July 30, 2006

Today I woke up as a draft

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They knew how I would feel this morning - like a draft of my ideal self.
ouch.

[current mood] Very very slow moving with Jazz

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July 29, 2006

I'm stirred - not shaken

she has design to do but keeps seeing
blossoms peek through the spaces between space bars
reminded of her head against the car seat
holding the thought that someone spent time on her

a mystery man perhaps
with signals to decipher
looking for the answer in boxes
but like life - you'll never be sure

fantasy outweighs the reality
that is certain
and
why would someone send love
and not desire reply

where can she send a response
so that she may exclaim directly
but isn't this unconditional love
one that does not desire confirmation

love
swallow that word
he might deny that it is

but the gesture is formed from it
so she can just claim it
and so what if he doesn't bond with that
she can't be embarrassed just for him

stop now

she must go back to the design
she snapped up
and watch her heart beat
like long blacks

[current mood] Black Eyed Peas in the Volvo

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July 28, 2006

What Ever!

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It's hip with the east side kids.
Use it whenever words are not enough.

[current mood] GREEN overload! Zucchini Soup, Fennel and Pea Risotto & Peppermint Tea

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July 27, 2006

Organs

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It took me a while to have the guts to sign over my organs (post life).
But I thought, if ever there was a sure way to be re-incarnated, donating organs is it. I like that I can give a gift of life in my death. And that someone might see through my eyes, love from my heart and breath through my lungs - selfishly, my cells, my self, may continue on.

I've had to get over the concept that I would somehow be conscious that my organs are being cut out when I'm dead and that I wouldn't quite be dead or I could come back to life... yeah, well, I've been assured that they don't remove them until you are definitely dead. And if I'm still conscious - like a soul overlooking my body, will I really feel the pain? Instead I would be excited by the gift. Yes?
Surely I'll be focused on some other aspects of being dead - like Oh my god, I'm dead! This is what it's like!

If you don't want to go to the grave as a beautiful whole dead thing:
Donate Your Organs
Due to a restructuring of WA's Organ Registration method, a huge number of organ donars have dropped off the list. So numbers are down.
Peace!

[current mood] RTR FM 92.1 playing from a little radio by a rainy window

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July 25, 2006

Great Balls of Water

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I'm fascinated by how rain clings to flowers in such perfect globes of water.
They appear to be very viscous. And they hang there for hours in the sunlight.
Showing off I think.

[current mood] Too many Swedish Biscuits & The Necks

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July 24, 2006

Rude Head!

The new MacBook Pro comes with a built in webcam.
One of the options is 'mirror' effect.
I wanted to see how ugly I could make myself look.
Hours of fun here. I like that as a photographer I can still get excited by daggy special effects - even at my own expense.
My friends and I are known to take photos down each others throats, or pulling the ugliest possible expressions. I'm always reminded of 'When The Wind Changed' by Ruth Park. (Never understood why pulling ugly faces was such a childhood issue??)
But now as an adult, I swear I pull them constantly - giving away all thought.
Never had this problem as a kid.

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Cyclops Head
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Praising Head
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Chipmunk Head
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Regular Me - really!

[current mood] Loud Music in my New Studio

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July 23, 2006

Chalked Dreams

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Once
We wrote a list on the wall of the things we would do together
to ensure we would never forget one of them.

When it ended I realised that we never did do one of things on the wall.
It was a contrived dream that we wrote about more than we lived it.

[current mood] Moving on to the third series of 6ft Under & Lindt

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July 21, 2006

Winter Sill

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I like to decorate my window sill with findings from the street.
This duo feels so wintery. Lilac blossoms and brown bumpy leaves.
I'm not sure why this image feels so American to me, there is something about the weather, colours and flora that throws me back to a dream-like memory of living in Louisiana.
I only visited when I was 3 years old, has it stuck with me so subconsciously since then?
Perhaps it links to my mother who grew up there.
I think I hold some of her memories in my cells.
I'll go ask her...

[current mood] Siesta for Boogie Energy Manifestation

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July 19, 2006

A Tricky Situation

I got a letter from the government the other day
Opened, Read it, Said they were
thankful?

for a valued contribution toward assisting developing countries to reduce poverty and achieve sustainable development.

Picture me giving a damn
I said nice one!

[current mood] A Stranger's Sparkling Eyes

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July 18, 2006

Swatch this Space

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The Town of Vincent really is a pastel place.

These snippets are a temporary collage I made from others' photographs of the town.
They were taken by the Multicultural Men's Group at ASeTTS (Association for Services to
Torture and Trauma Survivors). I took them out for a photo-trip and got them shooting colour, texture and pattern - and each other. It is always a great challenge with this group because most of the men speak only basic english. My miming skills come in real handy.
From which direction to point the camera, to describing what texture is. I love it!

When I watched, from across the road, Thergum standing on a wall to photograph a grey concrete building with shadow on it, I knew my message had got through. Twas truly brilliant.
I'll get the developments of the project on here shortly too.

[current mood] Poached Eggs & Silence

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July 16, 2006

It's just me and my monkey

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Everything you can know about life can be learnt from monkeys. So I took 6 friends on a zoopedition. At the zoo we have insight at our fingertips. In every corner is a lesson on life... if you look for it.

And to have childlike wonder at the incredibleness of animals is a blessing. We all turned into the little ones we once were, scared of the crocodile, giggling at the rhino and sad for the orangutan. On a mission from one land to another, from Africa to Asia, peering and pointing and cooing... yet with adult minds we couldn't help but realise the deeper loss of our wilderness and this time capsule that we are in.

I'm going to once again start blogging daily, the small entries will make up a greater entry.

I think my monkey needs a name though. Can you suggest?

[current mood] The Beatles "Everybody's got something to hide except for me and my monkey"

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July 10, 2006

A symbol from Peru

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I was very moved when my mum gifted me with this necklace from Peru.
She said she thought of me when she saw it.
What she doesn't realise is how me it really is. I've just been reading the Celestine Prophesy set in Peru and delving into chakra colours and energy. This is an uncanny reflection of everything I am focusing on at the moment. The colours are even in precise order, and the shape is like a topographic view of a person from their crown chakra to their base. The little pearl piece at the top represents a universal energy, the drop of which feeds all of our own.
I wonder what the creator sees this design as. But does that matter, now that I have applied my meaning to it and see it perfectly represented?
I don't know if there is anything better than a gift derived from love and acknowledgement that is aesthetically pleasing and holds timely meaning to both the giver and receiver. joy!

(Please note, it was also the first time in 28 years that mum got it right)

[current mood] embossing, varnishes, diecuts & uncoated stock

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July 6, 2006

The Changing Perth Cultural Centre

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The bleeding heart of town
Where culture is peeling and ignored
Just grey and brown
and a large staired hole

Soon the sign will go
and instead there'll be a road
and some fancy shops shimmering with glass
Don't enter unless you have a white ass

I wonder whether 'they' will bother
to create a space for loitering
for milling
for thinking - our own creative thoughts?

Will they give us space to wander and imagine?
A place to meet those we know and strangers?
Room for wildness?
Air for imagination?

In our future cultural precinct - Will real art and culture survive?
Or will it just be design behind boxes and walls for those who can afford?

How can art flourish in our town?

Not at the mall
no, not at the mall.

Brisbane SouthbankMelbourne LanewayPaintings in an alleyPark Guell Barcelona
Park Guell BarcelonaPark Guell Barcelona
Click to see close ups of other places of inspiration. These create cities of cultural wealth, visited by the world. Places our artists flee to.

[current mood] Moss & Dim light

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July 4, 2006

blink - and I'm gone!

I received a hug by the world today
I was chosen
for a residency in Meekatharra
playing with the community
using photography as a means to grow
to see
and to connect
with our human family

It's called BLINK!
Being run by Country Arts in association with PIAF

I look forward to sharing this journey with you!

[current mood] A clean studio & The sound of my heart beating

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July 1, 2006

June came and went

So, slowly I emerge from a month away from work.
Now I can reflect on what I achieved...

Bugger all


ahhh! perfect...

[current mood] Ylang Ylang & German Beer

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