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March 6, 2006
Where is my mind?
I don’t know what I’ve done with them, but I have lost most of the memories of my life. I can’t remember where I put them…get it? When I think about things I have done, it all becomes a blur. There’s general brush strokes of colour, but somehow I’ve lost the detail.
Holidays overseas are reduced to street stalls selling hand-carved stamps, burnt CDs and paper lanterns, playing the guess-what-song-i’m-whistling game on the deck of a boat, a sacrificial goat losing its head at a Kali temple, bananna pancakes, late-night Bob Marley infused swimming, a motorbike accident going down-hill in the rain and billboards in a language I’ll never understand.
Years with Him now fills a few hours with a lazy Sunday in bed, late night gin tears, the first ‘I love you… ‘(that I could never forget), sing-song showers, onion risotto, nigga change, a rainbow flanny, piggy-back rides home from the Scotto, fighting about having a bong in the laundry and home made birthday presents.
Nearly four years at University is a mere day course where I read David Malouf, learnt to ‘show not tell’, sewed a few hundred costumes for some pantomimes, and wrote a couple of words for the student paper.
My childhood would make my mum cry, all I’ve got is learning to write my sisters name first because it was shorter, realizing ‘prick’ was a bad word when I said it to my mum in the car park of the fish and chip shop, getting paid one cent for every snail I collected from the garden and having my nails forcibly cut after I used them to draw blood and skin from my brothers’ back.
Hell, even yesterday is just a couple of pages of a new book, strong coffee and yoga. But give me a couple of weeks and I’m sure I will forget that too.
Posted by catherine at March 6, 2006 3:07 PM
Comments
Perhaps you should commission a biography: "Catherine: what I still remember". Or write down all the years of your life, then write a list of everything you remember that year. Keeping adding to it as things wander through your mind. You'll discover you remember much more.
Good luck,
your friend,
Core.
PS - non_stalker is my real email.
Posted by: Core Fanbase at March 8, 2006 2:16 PM